Being a girl

Ok, so I have never really thought of myself as a girly girl. I was not one of those girls that cried at movies. But apparently I have become one of those girls. This weekend has been very emotional and difficult for me.
As many of you know my grandfather passed away in January. He was an incredible man, and I can only hope that I have just a few of his many great characteristics. He was the ultimate granddad, he would do whatever he could to make me happy. From making he dentures move around his mouth like they were toys, despite getting in trouble with my grandmother, or letting me drive the four wheeler or getting me my first color television with a remote (even though my parents had said no). He was just a wonderful man, and the world is a little less good without him in it. Anyway, I mentioned that is was a hard weekend, not just because it was Father's Day but also because Friday was his 93 birthday. I am still struggling with what it means to not have the only grandfather I have only know, and this weekend was really hard.
On top of that I had to kiss my husband good bye while he goes off to a wonderful 10 day vacation with some of his best friends to Germany. And here is where it will be very girly...I really miss him. I know it is just 10 days and he just let last night, but it will be the longest we have been apart since we met two and half years ago. I am really glad that he went, he will have a wonderful time and everyone should get a trip to Europe. But I miss him and can't wait to see him again. I really don't like empty beds!