Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Tally board is too heavy...

So it feels like overall 2009 has been a pretty good year. It definitely started out better than 2008 and is seemingly progressing along on a positive note. But the past week has jaded by view of things. I am trying to keep in mind that this is just a blip on the map and that things will get back to the good, but for right now I am in a funk and having a hard time getting out of it. Here are just a few of things that have made the bad side of the tally board a little heavier than it should be...
*Friend battling breast cancer, she is a superstar and has been incredibly positive throughout the whole ordeal, but she sounds incredibly tired on the phone and I worry about her constantly.
*SIL is dealing with biopsies to see if there is any chance that she might have to deal with breast cancer
*Lady that I used to sit next to at work was murdered by her husband this weekend, not sure how to deal with the idea of losing an co-worker to murder
*Two of my great aunts passed away in the last couple of weeks
*Personal issues with regards to health (nothing serious, just something that has to be dealt with)
*Two bald patches that have reappeared and don't seem to be responding to the medicines (for those that don't know I lost all of my hair for about 7 years, I would like to avoid a repeat)
*Frustrating projects at work, it seems that the harder I work the crappier the projects that are handed to me and the worse condition they are in
* A very old and dear friend and his wife moved to Florida last week, so instead of being 15 minutes away they are now 10 hours...
*Fighting with the furniture store to get delivery of final piece of our bedroom suite
So needless to say I am just in a funk and not sure what to do to get out of it. I try and think of the positives, but just when I start to make a breakthrough it seems like one more thing gets added to the tally board.
In an effort to try on look on the bright side, I will list the positives of the last couple weeks:
*Final payment from mortgage company of remaining insurance money
*Friend came into town to help get the house back in order (including helping to paint the living room)
*Looks like we will be getting a supplement from insurance company for things they screwed up
*Delivery schedule for final bedroom furniture piece and living room furniture
*Saw Les Miserables for like the sixth time in a whole new way

Well thanks for reading my ramblings, I know that it will all be ok and that things will get better, but for now they seem to be more loaded on the negative side. Here's hoping to happy events to follow.